B Robson:

After thinking about it for a while, I realize that I should stop responding
to you on this thread. So this is my last comment. I wouldn't be surprised
if you 

Frankly, some of the recent revelations you made about yourself are telling.
You admit to alcoholism, almost boasting about it. You admit to deep seeded
envy. You mention that your apartment is small, and don't deny that there is
no one is waiting for you there.

In addition, there is the general immaturity of your posts, making me wonder
if you are not also TXZZ.

Good luck in your life, may you eventually make it through rehab.